This Friday to Saturday I went to a retreat for my Young Adults group. During one of the leadership prayer/learning sessions, I had this thought as we were praying the "A.W. Tozer prayer," and had to write it down. So, enjoy!
In our society, unworthiness is a totally foreign concept. In our North American, 1st world, big power society, everyone has rights, equal rights even. We are all "entitled" to our opinion, preferences, sexual orientation, or whatever else we so choose to want or be "deserving" of. "Unworthiness" is a completely unfathomable concept; and while some of have insecurities about social status, love levels from our parents, intelligence levels, etc, I believe that the vast majority of humans in Canada, the US, etc., no matter how many insecurities we may feel we struggle with, still have no real concept of being unworthy, let alone unworthiness to the point of not being allowed to look upon someone's face or even be in their presence. Because of this, how are we ever supposed to comprehend or even fathom the divine privilege that we have to be talking to Jesus Christ, let alone be in his presence during prayer or worship? I myself am definately a narcissistic product of the "me" generation of society and can't even begin to imagine what a privilege it is to be talking to God or even reading his word, and I kind-of morn the loss of our own humility. Instead of revering God and respecting him at least as much as the Prime Minister or a pop star or the Queen, I get irritated with his demand for my constant attention and servant hood and service, and try to kick him around for later - like a stupid dog who's gotten in my way. I morn this loss and I morn my own arrogance and stupidity. Sadly, I know I'll forget about it tomorrow.
God is greater, and we should respect him enough to ask for his time when he's not demanding ours, and give gladly when he is.
So the answer to the question that is the title of this post is as follows: yes, we are unworthy, and I wish I better understood that statement.
April J
In our society, unworthiness is a totally foreign concept. In our North American, 1st world, big power society, everyone has rights, equal rights even. We are all "entitled" to our opinion, preferences, sexual orientation, or whatever else we so choose to want or be "deserving" of. "Unworthiness" is a completely unfathomable concept; and while some of have insecurities about social status, love levels from our parents, intelligence levels, etc, I believe that the vast majority of humans in Canada, the US, etc., no matter how many insecurities we may feel we struggle with, still have no real concept of being unworthy, let alone unworthiness to the point of not being allowed to look upon someone's face or even be in their presence. Because of this, how are we ever supposed to comprehend or even fathom the divine privilege that we have to be talking to Jesus Christ, let alone be in his presence during prayer or worship? I myself am definately a narcissistic product of the "me" generation of society and can't even begin to imagine what a privilege it is to be talking to God or even reading his word, and I kind-of morn the loss of our own humility. Instead of revering God and respecting him at least as much as the Prime Minister or a pop star or the Queen, I get irritated with his demand for my constant attention and servant hood and service, and try to kick him around for later - like a stupid dog who's gotten in my way. I morn this loss and I morn my own arrogance and stupidity. Sadly, I know I'll forget about it tomorrow.
God is greater, and we should respect him enough to ask for his time when he's not demanding ours, and give gladly when he is.
So the answer to the question that is the title of this post is as follows: yes, we are unworthy, and I wish I better understood that statement.
April J
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